Paralyzed From the Brain Down - April 3, 2020

To say the past weeks have been weird is an understatement. I have been trying to work from home, but it's difficult. What's worse is that I'm home more, but am completely unable to paint! I'm paralyzed and I can't figure out what's wrong. My husband says all psychological problems are inherently fixable if you can articulate what the problem is. So when I can't articulate it, I feel worse, like it's only ME standing in the way of feeling better. If only I were smarter.
One fun thing is that my siblings and I are all talking more online. Yesterday we had the best conversation because one never-available-when-we-group-call sibling actually took part! Unfortunately, they also got mad when I took a (lot) screenshots. I touched up one of the screenshots to show how they should really feel about me. 

I'm thinking of downloading some filters for my next meeting at work and looking like the potato lady I can't stop laughing at this picture. 

And laugh…

Emotionally Mute and Numb

Do you ever have it happen where you are working on a project like gangbusters - full of ideas and energy - and then, all of a sudden, you poop out?

I hit the wall on Sunday with my art. All of a sudden, my ideas dried up. I felt listless and tired.

I suppose this is part of the creative process - the rejuvenation part. It's just that I hate having to go through it. I feel like so much time is passing without accomplishing anything.


And what's worse is that I can't adequately describe how I'm feeling. I've never been articulate about my feelings and emotions anyway, but I feel particularly mute right now.


Holly Jane said…
Time for two things: clean-up and instant gratification. I've kind of been feeling that way, myself, this week, and looked around to realize that a) my sewing/drawing area is a mess, and b) everything is taking so effing long to complete and there are at least 4 unfinished projects laying around. You've been moving, so I'm guessing your crafty area looks like a bomb went off. I propose we look into new neat-o organization contraptions for the craft crap, and pick a project that can be completed in one morning. Even with an urchin clawing at the legs. Like making a box to stick urchins in.

Heading down to the cakeshop of aggers and sitting at the table of blah with you. Where's the chocolate wench?
Heather Eddy said…
I've been mainlining Dove chocolate...

And you are right - bombs look like they've hit the whole house! I have the 3-day weekend off. Hopefully I can make some headway...

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