Paralyzed From the Brain Down - April 3, 2020

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To say the past weeks have been weird is an understatement. I have been trying to work from home, but it's difficult. What's worse is that I'm home more, but am completely unable to paint! I'm paralyzed and I can't figure out what's wrong. My husband says all psychological problems are inherently fixable if you can articulate what the problem is. So when I can't articulate it, I feel worse, like it's only ME standing in the way of feeling better. If only I were smarter.
One fun thing is that my siblings and I are all talking more online. Yesterday we had the best conversation because one never-available-when-we-group-call sibling actually took part! Unfortunately, they also got mad when I took a (lot) screenshots. I touched up one of the screenshots to show how they should really feel about me. 

I'm thinking of downloading some filters for my next meeting at work and looking like the potato lady I can't stop laughing at this picture. 

And laugh…

What I've Been Doing

Again the time has FLOWN! I've been working on sooooo many things that I didn't realize I hadn't blogged. It wasn't until I received an email from one of my blog friends asking me if everything was okay that I kinda looked up and realized, oh it's been a long time since I poked my head into blogland...

But I have been doing good things. I've been working on my 101 goals. I've made seven different types of bread (orange loaf, banana chocolate-chip Nutella swirl, carrot-horseradish, lemon poppyseed, chocolate-vanilla, chocolate to die for and another chocolate one that doesn't have a memorable name) in my bread machine, been working on my personal cookbook (putting all of my recipes on 4x6 cards into a photo file box), decorating my studio/room (OHMYGOSHIHAVEASTUDIO!!!!), making silhouettes of my family (easy-peasy, done in a couple of hours) and more.

I've also been having lots of problems (my stepdaughter is telling her mom that my husband and I say her mom doesn't love her because we take her to Disneyland - and her mom doesn't. We did go to D once, but we saved up for it and didn't have Christmas except for that! And we've NEVER told the kids their mom doesn't love them for any reason - in fact, quite the opposite - we remind them that their parents do love them in spite of getting mad at them or whatever) and family worries. Most of it is stuff that my mind ping-pongs about back and forth from thought to idea to conclusion to revision, etc. How can I blog when I never reach an answer about stuff like that? I can't, that's what!

A very nice woman has been convo-ing me (Etsy's messaging system) about my alphabet tutorial. I think I need to get to work and finish that up...

Oh, Lord, grant me the focus to finish the things I have started, to be patient about the thousand other things I don't have time to do in this life and the faith to remember it doesn't matter...

Comments

Nancy said…
Heather, welcome back to the blogging world we missed you. While I don't know how hard it is to deal with a step child, I do know how it is dealing with a mother-in-law that isn't exactly your fan (and whose son would never say anything his mother says is wrong). Best advice I can give is go about what your day doing what makes you happy and knowing that it's not you who has issues but them.
Heather Eddy said…
Nancy - I think of you as my virtual Visiting Teacher!

It's kinda hard to let the problems go - but that's another one of my 101 goals: don't save people who didn't ask to be saved...

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